if I could be a different

shade of blue

and this lunacy could be

beauty like the vibrational

turbulence of starry nights

from the other side of the moon

I'd give you something new to feel

to make you want to feel again

somewhere safe to land

coming down from the stars

as a human heart

with the waiting of outstretched arms

to take you close and keep you warm

so you could be again as bare 

as you were born into this world

without the fear of how the cold can cut

the tender into scarred 

to lead you deep into the far away

from the predation of the noise

and through the sanctuary of the silence 

of music longing to be remembered

for you to hear without the need 

to dissect the notes

or take it all as something 

held a distance from the ears

if I could be a different blue

I would bring you back 

from where you've gone

the way the flowers lure

the winged to taste their nectar

with the hue that carries the tone

of the song that belongs to you

and promise only nourishment

and shelter for the tired

and the spirit wandered far too long

if I could be that blue

the blue that I am not

when I am just a girl

who is good at leaving too

even though I no longer try

but only try to hold this space

for when you do come back

with not enough patience to always stay

so that some nights I am out there

hidden in the turbulence of the night

searching for my star to hold 

in the dreams I dream of blue